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Real Spill: When people aren’t your people
If this were taught in school, I swear it would have saved so much time and heartache that I can’t get back or unfeel.
The lesson has been learned though. And that is; everyone is not for you.
Within my previous relationship, you couldn’t convince me he wasn’t the one for me. No way. He was it. The female version of myself or what I believed to be.
Deep down there was a grave incompatibility. Yet it was nothing I didn’t feel we couldn’t deal with.
Then, it would be the same conversations, disagreements. Talks that would end in zero resolution. When you want something so bad, there’s almost no lengths you’ll go through to keep making it work. Some how, some way.
The relationship is over now. Hindsight is 20/20. And now the realization has just come to me.
He wasn’t my people.
And that was hard to cope with. To understand, accept.
This can hold true for friends, family even. Everyone is not for you and vice versa. Just because you get along or love or have a liking to them, doesn’t mean they are for you long term.
When people leave from your life, I’ve learned if a certain weight has been lifted, if you feel a bit better about yourself and life, if there was little to no reciprocation, then that is a clear indication they weren’t for you. And that is okay.
Nothing can be undone. I can’t get the broken pieces of my heart back. But I can heal. I can stop being angry. Choose to not be bitter. Find my tribe.
For those of you who know what I’m talking about, you can do the same.
